HELP. All right then. 28 August 2019 - 16:40. He came away from the experience feeling assured that he was straight, but he described lingering regret that “(he) was so confused” at the time. You may find certain things aversive because they threaten your sense of self, even if they are also sexually arousing, or would be sexually arousing if they weren’t so threatening. Thanks: 0. It is noticing and accepting without judgment. Now I feel my attraction is slowly being lost and my sexual identity the person I used to know is gone. I'm going to give a quick run down of what my journey of HOCD has been like over the years. Hey, look at that, another thought. I know I'm not gay but this feels so real. I’ve been reading these almost everyday though to see what other people are going through. But in HOCD, accepting thoughts, feelings, and sensations may feel like accepting a death sentence. And now whenever I see a cute guy my brain tells me that I am pretending to like them but before HOCD I would be so certain that I liked a guy. When I was a freshman in college, a gay guy who was an RA that lived in my dorm. Homosexual Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (HOCD) is categorized by intrusive thoughts revolving around one’s sexual orientation.People with HOCD suffer through uncontrollable and unwanted intrusive thoughts and images that leave them in a state of fear and anxiety about whether they are truly straight. When I just shrug the thoughts off or just ignore them, they quiet down. Join date: Aug 2019. Of course, I feel like I'm back to normal and the OCD doesn't feel so real when I accept them as thoughts and I don't let it get to me as much. You may find that you have other obsessions and compulsions that aren’t related to homosexuality. ... even though it feels like it's just the HOCD showing up. 3) Internalized homophobia is very real. Where do I start? Tommy123. After struggling with HOCD thoughts through high school and college, he decided to have a sexual encounter with another man in order to gain some certainty about his sexuality. I keep fighting those thoughts. iamstronger. Homosexual OCD – HOCD Treatment. It just so happens that since those related to HOCD induce the most fear and pronounced reaction, they continue to circulate. why does this hocd feel so real? You may be so anxious about all of these thoughts and feelings, that you don’t know which way is up. The thoughts feel so real but then as soon as I start to believe they're real I For the last 6 months or so I've been suffering hocd or at least I hope anyway lol . I'm tired of having everything figured out and feeling that relief like it's all going to be okay and then not a day later....meltdown. HOCD thoughts/feelings feel so real. The HOCD thoughts are getting worse and worse, so I think. HOCD is a real killer of your self being. ... and remind yourself of that, and not let intrusive thoughts bother you. I dealt with HOCD and I literally feel like I'm becoming a lesbian. There's a war going on inside of me and I want it to stop for good, not just a day at a time. Homosexual OCD can be … Forum User. HOCD can feel so real sometimes that I feel like i'm going crazy. My HOCD feels so real please help. I will agree to a certain extent that there is a POSSIBILITY IT EXISTS, and am finally glad someone finally came and told that HOCD did not come from Religious Extremists as there are even homosexuals who become intensively obsessed with their orientation, but there is a lack of evidence supporting it and the fact you made an account on this site JUST for the purpose of exposing, so … Mindfulness Skills and HOCD. It feels so annoying cause I loved crushing on guys. And it’s gotten to a point where I need to come on here and ask for help. 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